Already Where I Need to Be
Practically every person I have encountered in the past while have asked me “So what’s next?” to which I have responded with what I have last posted.
Ironically, shortly after completing my out-of-town internship, I didn’t rest as much as I had hoped for. Instead I returned temporarily to my previous part-time job. As busy as it can get, it has also provided me time to have various interesting conversations and observations of people/life. You know how some people love to observe people in airports? It’s sort of like that except I interact with every individual that enters to the office even if in brief.
I must say though that I have also recently taken intentional time off to rest, wrestle things out, reorganize, and prepare myself for what’s ahead. I have been thinking about how it’s so easy to get caught up in being told by others where one ‘should be’ or what one ‘should have’ in life; and if one does not abide to these supposed standards then one is ‘falling behind’. But I truly believe that when people get caught up in making comparisons of one’s life to another, it causes so much anxiousness, fear, and insecurity.
I’m sure we know this fact and that is everyone’s life is different from one another’s and God’s timing for each person is different – so why is it that often times there is such a pressure placed on people to be and have certain things? I’m glad that though it took some hard work, I’ve come to a place where I am confident and secure in my identity in God.
I hold onto this passage because the reality is that God comes first above all things in my life:
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. - Matthew 6:33 (ESV)
He comes first because His will and desires for me matters most. He comes first because His plans and thoughts are far greater than mine or than anybody’s plan for me. He comes first because as the author of time, He knows what I need when.
That being said, something that seemed so straightforward and yet so easily ignored dawned on me recently – I am already where I need to be.
It’s not about where I ‘need’ to be next but I am already where I need to be to invest in the lives that God has placed upon my life. I was and may continue to work at this office to have the conversations and observations as God sees fit.
My boss though not a Christian but is a very wise man and has strong insight into theological understanding. In one of our recent conversations, he was telling me that many years ago one of his Christian roommates had written on their own desk in Chinese “榮耀歸於主” which means “All glory belongs to God”. My boss used this to encourage me to remain steadfast whatever the future may hold. He alluded essentially to the fact that if we give glory to money, to fame, to power it will ruin us; but if we give the glory to God then you won’t be serving all these other worldly things. He talked about God because he saw how it can speak into my life knowing that I’m a Christian. I’m often amazed and blessed in our conversations.
Interestingly, God led me ‘coincidentally’ or not so coincidentally to this song that speaks so closely to this story:
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