What is my Purpose?
What is the meaning of life and death? What are our purposes? Our brother, Kenric, shares his journey as he treads through various paths to find Christ and comfort in his heart.
I often thought about the purpose and the meaning of life and death after my father passed away in 1995. I became a Buddhist one year after, and wanted to find out answers through Buddhism. Buddhism did answer some of my questions about the meaning of life, and gave me comfort during my suffering. However, it was not a living religion that could diverge my life away from sins and to get away from that sense of meaningless towards living. Nothing changed until I started going to a Christian fellowship with my friend in 2003.
Initially, I disliked Christianity and was trying to promote Buddhism in the church. I was a well-known trouble maker and often raised questions against the Bible. One time, they did a Bible study on the book of Ecclesiastes. I was shocked to see so many similarities in the Bible in comparison to the Buddhist theology. Ever since that time, it drew my interest to have a better understanding of Christianity. I became more open and tried to not quickly turn down this religion before I found enough evidence to support my conclusion and decision of not believing it.
One day, I fell into a problem at my workplace, and I felt very anxious. I tried to do Zen and practiced the spell, but it did not relieve my sorrow and worries. Suddenly, I remembered a verse from bible: “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28). So I went to Christ and prayed: “Jesus, I do not know what to do. If you are real, please show me the way”.
When I humbled myself in front of God, I immediately felt relief and had peace. I experienced the comfort from Jesus Christ, and I saw a light shining to drive out the darkness in my heart. I came to realize that I could only hear Jesus’ words when I humble myself, admit my deficiency, and to open up my heart for His help.
After this experience, I became eager to know the Bible and Jesus Christ. I prayed about it, and God listened to my prayers. I found new insight that I never had before I read the Bible. Jesus Christ showed me how arrogant I was and all the sins I had. He replaced the sorrow and hatred in my heart with His peace and His love. The broken relationship between me and my family was repaired. He also helped me quit many bad habits that I had been suffering for many years.
I came to Christ in the year 2005 and was baptized the same year. Once I was living in the darkness, but now I am saved and no longer living in it because Jesus Christ is my Saviour and my God, as He said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” (John 8:12). Under God’s grace and mercy, I will continue to hold fast to His promise and grace that can save me from all evil and lift me up to His presence until the end of my life.
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